Hello everyone. This is my first blog in practically ages. Because of that I didn’t want to head straight into more trivia, facts or bios about Predgarians.
I do want to tell you all what I’ve been doing in my absence though.
The funny thing about being a writer is that even when there’s no pen in hand or fingers tapping on keyboard – we’re still working.
Our brains don’t let us rest, ever. Even in sleep, our heads often tell us stories.
The last few months, since before Christmas in fact, I’ve been wading through mud.
I don’t know whether you’d call it being closed, guarded or just proud, but I’ve always had this thing – even when I was a teenager. I’d happily tell people my dreams, aspirations, achievements, but the other stuff I’d brush under the carpet.
All my failures, my flaws, my fears, as far as other people were concerned they didn’t exist.
I wouldn’t let anyone see those things, and I really didn’t do this on purpose, but I created an outside persona that wasn’t all of me. I really think people thought I had no problems.
I don’t like to talk about it. The world has lots of problems without me throwing mine out there as well.
But here I am, on the verge of telling you all. I’m not going to spell it out, I can’t go that far, I guess I’m not open enough. Let’s just say my fears get the better of me sometimes, and when that happens the world gets very dark.
There was something else pulling me down as well as my own mind though, and for the longest time I couldn’t work out what it was.
Then a good friend of mine made a very good point. She said:
Christine, you do realise that for the last year and a half you’ve been doing nothing but revising and editing?
It stopped me in my tracks. I realised she was right, I hadn’t actually wrote anything new in ages.
So even though I have deadlines, I set Predgarians to the side and began to write a side project I’d had in mind for a while. I had to really, because not only was Predgarians suffering, but I felt dead inside.
I enjoyed myself tremendously and by the end, I looked on Predgarians book 3 with excitement, not dread.
So I learned a very important lesson here, and I know what to do if this ever happens again.
I’m not out of the mire just yet though. I’m working on it, and I’ll try to blog again with some frequency – and I’m going to work my ass off to make Predgarians 3 a book you’ll all love and not be able to put down.
Look out for it this Christmas, I can’t tell you much about it just yet, but it features all the usual suspects – and Jackal is far from finished with Falcon.